Yesterday I missed a daily post for the first time in two months. I started editing a draft for the day's post, but in the end I knew I just didn't have the energy to put up something I was happy with. One of the things I promised myself when I committed to reinvigorating this blog was that I would never let it become a drain on my energy. And so I decided yesterday that I needed my energy saved up for more important things - family, work, self-care. I may try to get a weekend post up, but I'm trying not to let guilt/stress take over. I'm working on remembering to be as compassionate to myself as I am to others. I'm much harder on myself than I would be toward anyone else in my situation. Sometimes a blog post doesn't make it up and it's not the end of the world. It's ok if everything isn't perfect. We're all human here.
Ok. End of therapy session.
Let's get into some of the more positive bits from the past week.
This is where I admit that I have not been reading this week, and I may not be reading much at all this month. My bedtime reading routine has now been placed on hold while I use my evenings for writing, and I've been writing up until I collapse into bed each night this week. I am still listening to the Shadow and Bone audiobook. I'm still hooked on Fates & Furies, halfway through and I've caught myself gazing longingly at it sitting on my bedside table several time throughout the week. I've also started re-reading Julius Caesar for work, but I've included it here because Shakespeare is mainstream enough for the Internet.
This first week of NaNoWriMo has been quite the challenge, but it's also been so fulfilling. I've been loving this opportunity to focus on writing again - I've written every day, and even though I'm still behind on the word count goals I've found the experience of devoting myself fully to a story to be 100% worth it. I also added the 15,000 words I started with to my tally on the website - I'm still aiming for 65,000 but I found it a bit disheartening to see the tiny graph, so now I can look at a much taller graph when I log in to update my word count. One of the best parts so far has been the flow of ideas I've had for this story. I had already been filling up my outline/planning notebook for the novel, but everything's starting to come together now. I won't gush on and on too much here. If you're also doing NaNoWriMo I'd love to be your writing buddy!
I have continued on my unintentional Netflix Fast this week. The only exception was last weekend - Hugh and I binged Grace and Frankie, which is such a great show. Jane Fonda, Lily Tomlin, Martin Sheen, Sam Waterson, and Craig T. Nelson (as a guest star) all in one show together. How could it not be amazing? HIGHLY recommend.
Oh and of course I watched Emma Watson's conversation with Malala Yousafzai. It's so great to see two wonderful, inspiring young women talking about feminism and making change in the world.
This week I've been loving Elizabeth Gilbert's podcast Magic Lessons, which is about the creative life and is a companion to/ her new book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear. It's been great to listen to this month as I'm focusing on invigorating my creative life. On Being (one of my favourite podcasts) also had a great episode up this week - Krista Tippett in conversation with Adam Gopnik, Practice Doubt, Redrawing Faith. Also worth a listening, from the New Yorker Fiction podcast, Lydia Davis reads 'Then We'll Set It Right', a short story by her father Robert Gorham Davis.
This week my best friend and I obsessed over coffee - we're both big lovers of a good (or a bad) cup of coffee. I loved reading about the corporate/business side of the 'good coffee' movement: The True Story of Good Coffee from The Awl. And Samantha shared this amazing article on The Case for Bad Coffee. Perhaps my favourite reading this week has been a rediscovery of some great Harry Potter fanfic inspired by this BuzzFeed Books post, Old School Harry Potter FanFic Recommendations. Harry Potter fanfiction was my first entrance into the fandom and it also inspired some of my earliest writings, all of which are lost to history now (probably for the best). And finally, Slate has a great interview with Phillip Pullman. It's 20th anniversary of The Golden Compass and there's exciting news about a TV series based on the His Dark Materials series.
Sacrificed my bedtime reading for bedtime writing last night. It was bittersweet, ya'll. Feelings are happening.— Rose (@rosemariepip) November 2, 2015
The challenge of my working life, as a perfectionist/workaholic w/ anxiety: Not to allow physical or mental exhaustion to wreck my emotions.— Rose (@rosemariepip) November 4, 2015
Reading self-help articles about how to deal w/ family stress...should give a clue as to what's keeping me from the Internet.— Rose (@rosemariepip) November 5, 2015
None of the articles so far have been very helpful...I guess there are still a few things that the Internet can't make easier.— Rose (@rosemariepip) November 5, 2015